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Hello everyone.
So... I was a happy fellow, enjoying life, pip pip, ho ho and all that. Then suddenly, about 5-6 years ago, I started noticing weight gain, which I figured was just a natural metabolism change; fatigue, which I figured was just a result of the weight gain; and some angina/paroxysmal atrial tachycardia, which I figured was the result of the two combined. I simply went along with life as best I could until last summer, when I shared a room with a young man during a gaming convention and upon waking up, he told me, "Dude, do you know you stop breathing when you're asleep?"
I didn't know.
Needless to say, it was somewhat disconcerting to find out, and the missing piece of the puzzle needed to realize that what I was going through was not normal aging in the late 20s/early 30s. I spoke to my doctor about it, and last night, on his orders, I had my first polysomnogram sleep study at the local hospital. I got to try the masks over my face, but without clamps and without air, and then I went to sleep normally and I was studied. At 2AM, I was awakened and they were ready to try a mask on me for the remainder of the night. First one they tried was a nasal pillow, and the sudden influx of air (the lowest setting, apparently!) was so rich that I choked on it, which woke me up completely because I was now afraid the thing was going to kill me. I asked if the pressure could be lowered, my sleep nurse told me that was the lowest setting, so I asked her for one of the larger mouth-and-nose masks, theorizing that the larger volume would translate into less pressure. It did, and I was able to wear this mask for about 15 minutes, but I couldn't get comfortable with it, and after taking it off for a moment, I found that I, who have never really been claustrophobic, couldn't bear the constriction I felt when it was put back on. I experimented with it a lot in those 15 minutes - I knew I could pull the air tube at a moment's notice, and that it was the air, not the mask, that I was finding intimidating. I knew that if, for some reason, the air flow stopped and the small ventilation holes on the mask all plugged up, I could push the plastic in with little effort to let outside air through, so there was no chance of the mask suffocating me. I KNEW these things, logically, and yet I still couldn't psyche myself up to wear it.
That's when the sleep lady said, "Look, you need this. I shouldn't be telling you this at all, but even though I've seen worse in general, you're the most severe case I've ever seen in a 30 year old male. Your O stats drop into the 70s, and you stop breathing more than 50 times per hour. You need this."
I will forever be grateful to her for leveling with me like that, because if she hadn't, I would probably not be as determined as I now am that I have to do SOMETHING about my now-confirmed sleep apnea. But of course, hearing that made what little hope there was of actually going back to sleep last night impossible, mask or no mask.
So here I am. Yesterday I thought I might have a sleep disorder. Today I'm sure that I have a severe one, that I have literally not slept more than two consecutive minutes for the last six years. I need a CPAP treatment, but every time I think about wearing it I become a little nauseous. I browsed your forums this morning, and I became aware of the things they don't talk about when they're trying to talk you into the CPAP - reddened nose, constriction, etc. Surgery's out of the question and I'd probably gag on this oral device, though, which makes CPAP the only option if I don't want to die in my 50s and be tired all the time up until then. The sleep nurse told me that that lowest setting pressure is only for while I'm awake, that she actually makes it MORE pressuring once I'm asleep until she sees best results, and that a CPAP machine at home would do the same automatically based on a time scale, and that thought is frightening to me. A follow up study is being scheduled in a couple of months - I have that long to get over this psychosis and try those masks. I know what I WANT to do - I want to go get a mask now and start wearing it, without the air, both awake and asleep, so that I'm completely used to it by the time the follow up study is done. Apparently not feasible, because insurance won't cover it until it's prescribed and it won't be prescribed until they have their study results.
What have you guys done to get over hurdles like this?
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Hi Judy. :) I did ask both the lab and several CPAP providers to loan me just a mask to get used to - they were unwilling to do so. Now that I'm a little more familiar with the process and know that these masks apparently get replaced by insurance every three months, I can see what kind of a big deal a 1 month loaner would be.
So I did manage to fall asleep with the mask on for a little while last night. But when I woke up, I wasn't wearing it. According to my roommate, I took off the mask, turned off the machine, went to the bathroom, stumbled back to my bed and fell asleep again, all without ever regaining consciousness since I have NO memory of any of these events. :) That being the case, I have absolutely no idea how long I actually got the treatment for, probably not long. But just knowing that the mask has gotten to the point where I can deal with it subconsciously seems like a victory to me.
And if I feel this good after "probably not long", I'm definitely sold on what a full night with the thing will be like! I feel about 30% more alert and aware than I usually would at this time of day, and I can sense a little bit more of an energy reserve, although sadly life as a tech gives me no time to actually exercise and see exactly how far that new energy can go. Perhaps this weekend I'll get a taste of that. :) If no one minds my ranting and raving, I'll probably give a daily report for the next week or two, just to get feedback on whether anyone else's early experiences were like this, and who knows, maybe helping someone down the road if they read this to know one set of possible circumstances to expect. :)
--Jerry
Ah well, another day, another weird experience to report. Taking Judy's earlier advice, I put it on two hours
I'm so delighted to hear about your improvements!!! Rome wasn't built in a day and you've REALLY come a long way in a short time giving all the problems you were having at the start. How refreshing to hear you have a good RRT to work with!! So many don't.
Ah well, another day, another weird experience to report. Taking Judy's earlier advice, I put it on two hours before bed and spent some time doing regular things. The biggest problem with that approach was that I couldn't get the mask into a comfortable, non-leaking position while sitting up straight... definitely designed for someone lying down. :) My mask is one of those that has the twisty thing on top to control how much pressure is on the bridge of my nose versus forehead, so I tweaked that until I found a result I could live with while awake and went with that. I got to the point where I could ignore the thing, which was great, and I was just starting to dose off naturally... when sure enough, suddenly I see flashing blue lights in all my windows because New Hampshire's finest are having problems with my neighbors. That was distracting, and of course I had to take the mask off to do the nosy neighbor thing and see who/what was going on. Eventually I put the mask back on and, again, had a nice successful two hours. :) Woke up at 2AM, spent some time chatting with my roommate (it's worth mentioning that my roommate is noctural, which is why he's always up and able to observe my shenanigans during the night), had a snack, went back to bed. I'm pretty sure I put the mask back on, but when my alarm went off at 8AM, the mask was off my face and lying next to me again - with the machine still active and blowing air. I'm sure /that's/ gonna look like leak city on the report. :)
I'm thinking I may share this "journal"/thread with my therapist when we have my one-month appointment, so she can match logs to the descriptions of the night. This, of course, will mean being honest with her about the fact that I'm accessing the SD card regularly, which, last night I copied all of the data off of it and I have gotten my hands on a copy of Encore Pro for my work computer, so I'm going to actually look at and try to interpret some of the data today. Do therapists usually get, how shall we say, "cranky" about patients having unrestricted access to the data? It's worth noting that, according to her, my insurance isn't really concerned about compliance so it's not like I would /have/ any reason to tamper with what's there.
In fact... I'm including the data in an attachment to this entry. :) I'm going to put it on a virtual SD card (my work computer doesn't have a real SD card reader) and give it to Encore that way, anyone else who wants is welcome to do the same and see what it says. :)
To respond to everyone's comments:
Judy: Thanks for letting me know this "mask off in my sleep" thing is normal and that apparently it won't keep happening forever, since you only had the two experiences. As for sleep "professionals", I know what you mean, but I actually like my respiratory therapist a lot, we established a rapport I think (and I'm not just saying that because she might read this! Heheh. :) Actually, the fact that I'd be interested in having her read it probably says enough about whether I think she's a useful/valuable colleague in the quest to get me better sleep. A "guide on the journey" as it were).
Renee: Thank you for your words of praise and encouragement, they are definitely appreciated. :) The person who wrote the original post could never say this, but now I've almost reached a point where I might ask the therapist to bottom out the pressure at 5 or 6... I can see how 4 might be making me a little uncomfortable in terms of how much air I get on a typical breath. I'm definitely not afraid of the machine or the pressure anymore. The trick now is just to figure out how to get a full night's sleep with the darned thing. ;)
RL: Sup buddy. ;) Up the thread a bit there's a link to the exact CPAP machine I have, I believe it's the same as yours. :) Does that make us CPAP brothers? ;) The CPAP does have a ramp button, but it's useless in my case as the pressure is set to 4 anyway. I think I'm always going to want it to be an adjustable pressure, but yes, as I was saying to Renee, I can see the value of a slightly higher base number now. It's way too early to be sure, but I think next month I'll probably request the machine be set to 5-14 or 6-14, which my doctor is cool enough that he'll sign off on just about anything I ask for in this regard.
And on that note, it's on with the day. See y'all tomorrow. ;)
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